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My room is cold and it's probably
because I sold my soul to my hair
dresser the time I had said "do
anything, please, make me feel
lesser than who I really am" - a
jester in a suit made of mockery
and pottery and poetry and all of it
has cracks straight through it and
I've never learned how to undo it
so I'm stuck with a broken mirror,
unable to see but still able to
pick out my flaws and, damn, ain't
that what they call reflective?
And now I have no eyes so I bet
the sky is more beautiful than ever—
it probably thinks it's so clever,
leaving me eager and starving for
all it's majesty but bowing is for men
and I spend my days carving out
my own organs with the dull scissors
in my room - you know, the ones I
only use to cut flowers in bloom; maybe
that is why they grew in my lungs,
'cause you know I love the colors but
now I just can't breathe like I've been
pressed and wrung through a machine.
How much longer will this ache take
and how much more will it be from me
- why aren't them other kids feelin'
all this quiet rage, why aren't they
gettin' those bids too—the ones filled
with nasty teeth and nasty hands beggin'
for somethin' I don't wanna give, don't have,
don't have to give up anyway but they
all got somethin' to say and they
force me to listen as if I ever cared
about what they say they're missin'; look,
I ain't sorry for all the apologizes that
took root in my mouth and stayed there,
goin' no where, but I'm payin' for it
with a garden in my stomach so now you
have something from me so just leave
me be with all the flowers that grow
in cold air and I promise, in the morning,
when the sun shines through windows
I can't see, that I'll still be there.
because I sold my soul to my hair
dresser the time I had said "do
anything, please, make me feel
lesser than who I really am" - a
jester in a suit made of mockery
and pottery and poetry and all of it
has cracks straight through it and
I've never learned how to undo it
so I'm stuck with a broken mirror,
unable to see but still able to
pick out my flaws and, damn, ain't
that what they call reflective?
And now I have no eyes so I bet
the sky is more beautiful than ever—
it probably thinks it's so clever,
leaving me eager and starving for
all it's majesty but bowing is for men
and I spend my days carving out
my own organs with the dull scissors
in my room - you know, the ones I
only use to cut flowers in bloom; maybe
that is why they grew in my lungs,
'cause you know I love the colors but
now I just can't breathe like I've been
pressed and wrung through a machine.
How much longer will this ache take
and how much more will it be from me
- why aren't them other kids feelin'
all this quiet rage, why aren't they
gettin' those bids too—the ones filled
with nasty teeth and nasty hands beggin'
for somethin' I don't wanna give, don't have,
don't have to give up anyway but they
all got somethin' to say and they
force me to listen as if I ever cared
about what they say they're missin'; look,
I ain't sorry for all the apologizes that
took root in my mouth and stayed there,
goin' no where, but I'm payin' for it
with a garden in my stomach so now you
have something from me so just leave
me be with all the flowers that grow
in cold air and I promise, in the morning,
when the sun shines through windows
I can't see, that I'll still be there.
Literature
Choose choice decide decision
The decision doesn't matter.
or, not really.
But can I choose another
without being buried in that decision, can I stand in the storms
of my own doubt?
That is the real test.
Securities and lack of, flashing
like strikes of lightning
across my face
And normally I choose to be broody
And unhappy in my consuming turmoil,
Mine. Possessive.
But these things strike me anyhow.
Be like the water. Soft, heavy,
Sometimes crashing,
Characteristically true.
Literature
once more with feeling
just tonight,
i will reduce myself to instincts.
when your hand settles wide and warm on the curve of my hip
i will allow myself to ease into you,
to sink into this infrequent surety -
to feel small,
(just now, just tonight)
and lay my body and my vulnerabilities bare,
trembling and receptive to your heat -
your solidity -
your mercy.
i will be reverent,
(just this, just once)
enamored of each breath,
each plane and edge,
each soft channel between
each heaving pair of ribs -
i will allow myself
(just once, just once)
to consume you,
to find myself
consumed.
(just this, just please,
just -
)
Literature
winter flow
seeing this river
wide spanned by a wooden bridge
lit by swaying lamps
lift your heads and smell the salt
we'll be in port by daybreak
on a wooden bridge
the winter river running
to the salty sea
unlit lamps smelling of oil
wait on this day's setting sun
the magpies gather
lamp-wick black and frosty white
on wooden bridge rails
coveting the sun sparkles
on the swift water below
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this is so wonderful!!
would it be okay if I used the title of the poem as a line in one of my own? I'd credit you, if you want
would it be okay if I used the title of the poem as a line in one of my own? I'd credit you, if you want