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I am a well, filled with clear
water with salt lined bricks, and
there is a swinging rope right
above me, trying to get me to
pull it down and let it rise until
I am out—no, this rope is not
a noose, not a loop, just something
to tie a bucket to and bring
up more life to give to people
who need it.
I am the water in this well too -
that is to say that I am my
own tears but they are not sad
right now but they are not happy
either; I feel like crying for
no reason except, maybe, to
carve and erode away at the stone
that sits in my chest—just to the
side of my heart and not my heart
itself and yes, I know that's not
how this is suppose to go.
I am the red bricks of this well,
stained by the natural clay of the
earth and untouched by my dirty
blood - don't you know that
could get the others sick? You visit
my town and try to drink from
this well and all around you try
and spy the dark edges that you
think are creeping in—there are no
shadows for you to see into just
as there is no darkness for you
to hide in.
There is no hanging noose (unless
you count the large crowns of
flowers the children make in the
fields, the ones that slip into a
necklace instead) and there is no
running blood (except there is,
of course, but it stays locked where
it belongs and that is in me)
and there is no spitting evil that
is clawing at my skin, my mind, my
soul and I bet that surprises you
more than anything else.
My suffering is like this well: deeper
than what I can make out but
always filled with water—that is to
say always giving me what I need;
you see, the warm fire is lovely
on cold nights but I am already warm
enough yet there are no people
who speak of the sweet coolness
that is the water so I suppose I must
become the people - and say that
I am sorry while I'm here, after all
you wanted to see me burn when all
I ever wanted was to float in a
pool, in an ocean, in my very own well.
water with salt lined bricks, and
there is a swinging rope right
above me, trying to get me to
pull it down and let it rise until
I am out—no, this rope is not
a noose, not a loop, just something
to tie a bucket to and bring
up more life to give to people
who need it.
I am the water in this well too -
that is to say that I am my
own tears but they are not sad
right now but they are not happy
either; I feel like crying for
no reason except, maybe, to
carve and erode away at the stone
that sits in my chest—just to the
side of my heart and not my heart
itself and yes, I know that's not
how this is suppose to go.
I am the red bricks of this well,
stained by the natural clay of the
earth and untouched by my dirty
blood - don't you know that
could get the others sick? You visit
my town and try to drink from
this well and all around you try
and spy the dark edges that you
think are creeping in—there are no
shadows for you to see into just
as there is no darkness for you
to hide in.
There is no hanging noose (unless
you count the large crowns of
flowers the children make in the
fields, the ones that slip into a
necklace instead) and there is no
running blood (except there is,
of course, but it stays locked where
it belongs and that is in me)
and there is no spitting evil that
is clawing at my skin, my mind, my
soul and I bet that surprises you
more than anything else.
My suffering is like this well: deeper
than what I can make out but
always filled with water—that is to
say always giving me what I need;
you see, the warm fire is lovely
on cold nights but I am already warm
enough yet there are no people
who speak of the sweet coolness
that is the water so I suppose I must
become the people - and say that
I am sorry while I'm here, after all
you wanted to see me burn when all
I ever wanted was to float in a
pool, in an ocean, in my very own well.
Literature
Choose choice decide decision
The decision doesn't matter.
or, not really.
But can I choose another
without being buried in that decision, can I stand in the storms
of my own doubt?
That is the real test.
Securities and lack of, flashing
like strikes of lightning
across my face
And normally I choose to be broody
And unhappy in my consuming turmoil,
Mine. Possessive.
But these things strike me anyhow.
Be like the water. Soft, heavy,
Sometimes crashing,
Characteristically true.
Literature
once more with feeling
just tonight,
i will reduce myself to instincts.
when your hand settles wide and warm on the curve of my hip
i will allow myself to ease into you,
to sink into this infrequent surety -
to feel small,
(just now, just tonight)
and lay my body and my vulnerabilities bare,
trembling and receptive to your heat -
your solidity -
your mercy.
i will be reverent,
(just this, just once)
enamored of each breath,
each plane and edge,
each soft channel between
each heaving pair of ribs -
i will allow myself
(just once, just once)
to consume you,
to find myself
consumed.
(just this, just please,
just -
)
Literature
letter from the moon
I spent three years of my life staring into the sun.
do you know what kind of damage that does to someone?
friends would take turns convincing me
to look away
but when I did --
afterimages
of light danced on the walls.
we built a home in them;
we played pretend, made shadows
of a life with our hands, lied
for days in the sun's mark.
we knew we could not live there.
the house soon grew
dark, silent, slowly. when nothing more could be seen,
I spilt the spirit from my own
split throat.
I thanked the sun for its gift:
blindness.
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great metaphorical skills